I am a chronic overthinker. It’s something that has been one of the biggest issues holding me back from being more present in my life. This is probably a wild way to start a blog, but I need to open up with some vulnerability.

The Creation

Several years ago, I came up with the name Thoughtfullmuse as a way to escape from the tumultuous things happening in my life. I was seeking a new identity and a new way to feel connected with myself. During this time, COVID was in full swing, and I was dealing with a no-good man after coming out of a relationship with another. 

Not to mention feeling my life was going nowhere after college, while navigating through my first stressful full-time job. I was also trying to find my footing as an author, often felt discouraged and like what I could wasn’t enough.

Put all of these things together and you get an image of a young black woman, feeling lost and scared, spiraling into a never ending state of despair. You get the idea. 

Not Another Sob Story

I’m not here to give a sob story because quite frankly there’s nothing unique about it. But I am here to say that over the years Thoughtfullmuse has become more than just a name for me. In hindsight, I embraced the name as a reclamation of my identity. It was the beginning of a woman starting to shed the layers upon layers of endured hurt; some inflicted, some not. It was the ending of cycles and repeated toxic patterns. A gift that occurred to me so randomly, I barely remember what I was doing.

A Journey to Self

In the moment, however, Thoughtfullmuse was only the beginning of the journey back to my true self. This would take years in the making of course, learning how to befriend myself and like myself enough at least, to see past the inner demons and understand that I am meant to be here. I have a purpose and I don’t need to have that all figured out. 

Thoughtfullmuse’s Purpose

Thoughtfullmuse is a space to explore the most complex, often beautiful feelings that come with humanity. As a speculative fiction author, it is my duty to honor my humanity to create and tell the hard, but necessary, stories. Thoughtfullmuse is about transformation. It’s about being honest with yourself and looking through a vulnerable lens at what’s most precious.

For You

I’m very happy to have you in this space. Every day, I am learning something new, whether about myself or the world. I aim to encourage other Black women and girls to explore themselves, and at the very least, honor their humanity because the world is intent on not doing so.

I hope that you can use Thoughtfullmuse as a space to feel understood, to question, to reflect, to find the words that you’ve been searching for, to transform and heal alongside me. We’re all doing the best that we can. And we’ve got to be so proud of ourselves because of it. 

Thank you for being here.

Thank you for seeing me, as I see you. 

Thank you.